Friday, December 07, 2007
Who I Am...
i dont know whats wrong with my self nowdays.always make other people mad or angry with me.i'm such a jerk and anoying person.i dont even know who i am.every each time i'm acting like sucks such as being cool or pretending theres no problem eventhough theres a problem.well...i love to pretending thats everything is ok infront of everyone.pretending is the best way to avoid people keep on asking about what i hate to say or discus.sometimes they ask what they shouldn't ask and that make me sick but you know that i wont show my angry face about what they ask but i will smile and shut my mouth and change the topic.they didnt know my real life.my real life is not a great story to told.its full of sadness and i guess nobody understands my life.my life is complicated to be understanding by others.i'm not like others that had a happy momment in their life.i didnt like they to understand my sad life coz it will make others to cry and cry and cry for the story that aren't about them but about others.when they cried out loud about me,its make me uncomfortable with them when they know about me.i just cant stand in the situasion where they pretending infront of me that everything is gonna be ok but the fact is IT DONT and everything is going to be history of sadness in my life or the prefect word to describe is PITTY ME and i dont like about that.i know who i am infront of them and please and please and please dont pitty for my sad story.hurm...well life sure does sucks if you were me.everything is not right.i hate the feeling.i guess it would be great if i'm not born into this great world.actually i hate for being me.i hate everything about me.i'm sucks if you do know me for real in my real life.
Current Mood:
depression of moodCurrent Listening:
Iris by The Goo Goo Dolls
The ExtraOrdinary Story Ends At 11:32 PM
