Wednesday, February 13, 2008


Is it Wrong If I Really Dont Realise?

why is this feeling keep on disturbing me?the guitly feeling keep hunting me.i know its my fault that i dont realise her in the canteen just now.but when i ask for forgiveness she just say "Ye".to me with that kind of answer is forgive but not sincerely.it just a WORD that you forgive but not in your heart.I know she's hurt that i didnt do as what i promise her to treat her today during after the school.i know its my fault for not realising shes in the canteen,but what can i do?i just DONT REALISE HER.i just cant help of my self to be alert to the people around me when i'm doing my homework and that the main factors that make me didn't realise whats going on around me.after the school time ends.i go to the canteen and sit down there and doing my homework besites waiting her to finish her class.but in the ends,i dont realise her until she already eating and went up to the PSS for duty.i'm just like..hye where is she?is she already forget about our promise that i want to treat her today?then i went up to the PSS and i dont saw her until the time we need to go home coz shes in the PSS office to typing for the last minit mesyuarat and else becouse she is the naib setiausaha.i want to say hello to her but isaw her face that show shes very upset that i make a promise but i didnt make it.then just shut up my mouth and go home.then i sms-ed her asking about where she go,is it she forgot about hte promise?then she replied.you are the one who forgot about your own promise.then i replied,since when?i waiting for you until it convince me that you're the one who forget about the promise.then i went up to PSS i didnt saw you at all.when its time to go home,i saw your face is not really ok with it.you dont even look me even once when i'm in the PSS.ok fine,i'm sorry for not realise you just now.then she replied,no its ok.then i replied,pls forgive sis?please?i'm soo sorry.then she replied,ye.i just like,what?did you really forgive me or just your word to make me feel better?i just cant take it when people just think that ala cakap je la yea tuk sedapkan hati dia.bukannya dia tahu pun aku maafkan dia atau pun tidak.wth?did you think i'm the person who can forget all the mistake that i've done easily to people which i think that i've made a big mistake to them?you are sooo damn wrong.argh whats going on with me?am i really crazy?or just my feeling?the feeling just cant be seperate from me.just keep on guilty day by day.argh its sucks to be me.

Current Mood:upset with whats going on
Current Listening:Tongue Tied by Faber Drive

The ExtraOrdinary Story Ends At 11:12 PM