Sunday, September 14, 2008


I'm Thinking...

huh~a bit relieve today.i've make my decision to let my lil pet sis know everything about her Boyfriend.and she is very surprisely about what i'm talking about her boyfriend.

i said all the thing that i really really hate about her boyfriend and she just look cool.i dont know whether she is really being cool or just pretend.and i said to her if she know about this,just do a thing as usual.dont take any action about this.and she was like what?he did this to you and you expect me to do nothing?are you kidding me?and i told her that,its ok.i'm sure he will understand and realise about that someday.

she really really cant do a thing.she want to make it right but i said no to her action coz this might ends her relationship between her and him.i just dont want to couse a problem or even make it more worst than before.i just dont want her to be hurt by others and by my word.

well,all of you know what type of person is me.i rather being hurt or bleed just to protect or let the one who i cared being hurt or bleed.i just cant see that.i must try and try to do anything with my own strengh and my own will just for them.its ok if only i'm the only one who pay for that as long as the one i cared and love is safe and happy.

actually,i had asked a Question for my self for a long time.am i really really can be a good brother or just a suck people who added a burden to the others?i cant find the answer.but when her boyfriend said that,kau tak layak jadi abg dia.petsis bukan main banyak,cam tu ke abg?ape daaaa.kau concentrate kat SPM kau je la.cuba jadi contoh skit.I was like what?is that true that i cant be a good brother or example to the others?am i stupid or what?i keep on and keep on asking the Question to my self.i didnt deserve to be a brother to others that are younger than i am.it make me think sucks about me.it really really leave a scar to my heart.no one had talk to me like that.i didnt deserve to be a brother to others.yeah maybe thats true.i'm sucks.dont you think so?maybe this is the price that i need to pay for being good to others and be really really sosialist to others.maybe i should be alone and far away from others so that i didn't hurt them or even my self.better doing my things than being busy body about others problem.did you agree with that?i'll think about that.

current mood:Down
current listening:Always In My Heart by The Moffatts

The ExtraOrdinary Story Ends At 8:49 PM